Zenz Secrets™

It's the time of the year when Chinese New Year decode and music hits major shopping malls in Singapore... just end my misery and slit my wrist for me haha

Yes, Chinese New Year is just 12 days away till we wish each other "gong xi fuck cai"! 

Don't get me wrong, I love Chinese New Year, it give me reason to buy new Clothes plus not forgetting the red packets I'l receive. But what I absolutely hate the most about Chinese New Year will be the incessant questioning from the most irritating people on earth... my relatives. I swear, it gives them great pleasure and joy to interrogate me.

Questions like "Still single", "Where are you now?", "What much you earn?" and many more will be thrown at my face. Worst of all, I have to put on this big fake smile and reply diplomatically. 

I should just create a Q&A Pamphlet and distribute them to my family members :)

-Z- 

I have decided to move back to my Livejournal after a super long hiatus.

So hello Livejournal and hello 2012 :)

So what has changed since my last entry dated 2nd September 2010... wow that's a whole 2011 not documented down!

Well the most noticeable ones are:
1) I'm done with Army (March 2011)
2) I'm studying at the Australian National University (July 2011)
3) I've turned 21 (Nov 2011)

Yup, 3 milestones in 2011! May 2012 be a wonderful year to all my wonderful family and friends :)

-Z-

Sorry for the longgggggggg haitus haha! Was totally busy and stuff!

I'm gonna learn COOKING! Those who think I can't cook... think again!!! Why the sudden decision some may ask... well it all happened 3 weeks ago. My friend came over to my house hungry and starving, that was already around 11pm plus. So I went into my kitchen, opened the fridge - my mind went BLANK! As blank as a wall.

In the end... guess what I made, Peanut Butter Bread (toasted for extra credit)!! I felt completely shitty and helpless!

ZEN YOU'RE GONNA LEARN TO COOK

I told myself, and yes I am :)

~Zenz Secrets~

HEY! Life has been great thus far... well ups and downs of course haha!

I will blog more soon, just really tired now. Watched Resident Evil 3 with my cousin, it's a freaking good movie! Can't wait for the 4th one to be out soon!

Anyway sleepy heads, nightz!

~Zenz Secrets~

Sorry for the haitus, was at Hong Kong!

I will blog more about my trip (inc. pics) next post!

*Watch this space*

~Zenz Secrets~

just a big SIGH with a capital S

I know I shouldn't but Im still blaming myself

Happy Fathers to all the Fathers out there! To all the lovely caring dads, great job at being a father!

To my dad, well happy fathers day then! Though you wern't there for the past 13 years if my life, by virtue that you're my dad, I love you.

Sometimes it's really difficult for me to see a dad affectionatly hugging his kids, cos I never had that before. So to me, what is "Fathers Love"? This is something I'll never know. Do I want to know?

Never.

~Zenz Secrets~

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Did I ever tell you how much I <3 Soy!

I know that's random haha. I'm blogging in the offfiice (Which is why Im so bored). 

I  NEED SOME ENTERTAINMENT!!! Perhaps dancing to Single Ladies would do the trick! Anyway I'm REALLY glad my lovely dears are back from overseasssssss!!

Anyway gotta run now, so tata!

~Zenz Secrets~
 

Feeling kind of nonchalant now, I'm done with studying.

So I shall blog :) ok since I'm feeling nothing but the air of moodiness I shall write about a list of things I'm afraid of...

I'm afraid of insects (even little ants)
I'm afraid of being alone (who doesn't!?)
I'm afraid of aging (do you look glam with wrinkles on your face!?)
I'm afriad of rejection (It's like taking a knife and stabbing yourself)
I'm afriad of uncertainty (note: very different from spontaneous)
I'm afraid of getting hurt emotionally (It'll take a while for me to recover)
I'm afraid of being fat (it's a superficial world honey)
I'm afraid of losing face (It's a teen-age thng, don't blame me)
I'm afriad of meeting new people (Yes I am, though I might be smiling and laughing, trust me deep down I'm trembling)
I'm afraid of people dsliking me (That's why I try my best to please everybody)
I'm afriad of not perorming up to expectation (I can be hard on myself at times)
I'm afraid of making friends (My excuse of "he/she gotta talk to me first" is because I'm afraid - there I said it)
I'm afraid of showing my emotions (I don't show them, I write them out)
I'm afriad of being judged (It's a Zen thing I think...)
I'm afriad of my upcoming SATs (Ok just for today)
I'm afriad of committing into a relationship (No sure if that'll change if I met the "right" person)
I'm afraid of not looking good in pictures (Thats why I love photoshop)
I'm afriad of not being loved (Sometimes I do feel that, even when it comes to family)
I'm afriad of eating alone. (Link to point #2)
I'm afriad of eyebags (I swear I'll do whatever it takes to rid eyebags from my face)
I'm afraid of ___ (That's why I'm still a ______)
I'm afriad of being left-out (It's hard to conform in all possible situations just to "fit-in")

I think that's all I can think of, out of the many I believe.

I feel so raw...

~Zenz Secrets~

Expect Nothing by Alice Walker

Expect nothing. Live frugally
On surprise.
become a stranger
To need of pity
Or, if compassion be freely
Given out
Take only enough
Stop short of urge to plead
Then purge away the need.

Wish for nothing larger
Than your own small heart
Or greater than a star;
Tame wild disappointment
With caress unmoved and cold
Make of it a parka
For your soul.

Discover the reason why
So tiny human midget
Exists at all
So scared unwise
But expect nothing. Live frugally
On surprise.

-Alice Walker